Faded but Hopeful

They thought you can't run anymore, but the truth is you can't even stand up tall. They thought you're just tired of racing, but actually your sight is already faded. You're drowning in your own river. Sleep is no more an escape. It's saddened to think. We're hoping for settling, not just escaping. Thinking too much drains tons and tons of energy; till fall asleep, obviously. Couldn’t believe pondering would hurt in this adulthood. Perhaps istighfār is all we need. Not to be purer, not to be renowned. Alhamdulillah for every inch of jumping for joy, every ounce of tranquility and strength, every single euphoric sense of freedom. الحمد لله ربّ العالمين  Feeling worthless is rather painful. Feel your self-esteem, earn self-respect, embrace your inner child ♡ Oh soul, i know you're stronger than i thought.

“Recite the Qur’an, for it will come as an intercessor for its reciters on the Day of Resurrection.”
Sahih Muslim

jungheewrites_ December 9, 2019